Day 200. One half, first of two equal parts, fifty percent. We are halfway to PJ being home!!!
I never thought I was going to make it here. I never thought I could deal with this all again. All I have to say it that I wish I felt like I was making progress. I feel like I have let myself down on so many occasions. Negative feelings, hatred and pity toward myself. I am sad to say that I'm not the person that I promised myself I would be.
I promised myself that I would be happy. I promised myself that I wouldn't project my sad, negative feelings about this deployment at PJ. It's unfair of me to complain about the situation that we are in, when there is nothing he can do about it. I forget sometimes that he's more than just a husband. He's a soldier.
I don't have so much to say lately because it seems that nothing positive ever comes out of my mouth. I'm rather sad about that. :(
Until next time.
